Emotions

An emotion is suggested and demolished in one glance by certain words. 


I usually write when i am in my philosophical mood but for once i am writing because i am extremely emotional lately. I believe that i am pretty strong minded person and will not tear up easily. But then i realized that the things that affect me is not personal things but rather things that affect my surroundings. I know that makes no sense and i am confusing you. What i mean is that i cry when someone says that i hurt their feelings, i cry when my country gets attacked by terrorist and i cry when an old people get mistreated by there children, i cry when young girls get sexually harassed and i cry when i see malnutrition kids in the world when the richie rich waste food everyday. I know it probably seems like i am trying to boast myself up but it truly gets to me. Come to think of it, its probably because these incidences shine upon the fact that I am so powerless. I am not able to help enough, I don't hold the power to make any significant changes in anyone's life. It reminds me daily that I am blessed in so many ways, yet I do not make the effort to ever get out and do something that will be helpful to end a lot of supposed "evil" out there. It could be many reasons for example I think of my well being before others, I feel like I wont be able to make any difference, or simply I am just a thinker and not someone who takes action. I don't know what the reason is but this feeling always recurs in my mind and depresses me. 

This is a poem that I wrote many years back and it might do justice to what I am trying to say at the moment a little better!!

What My Heart Desires 

What my heart desires,
is my own reflection
I have lost myself in the clutter of life
I exist but, I cease to live
What my heart desires 
is the art of music
the art of writing,
the art in me.
I have lost myself in the darkness of the night.
In the night that never ends,
in the starts that never shine,
in the moons never glows,
The night that never inspires.
I have lost my muse.
What my heart desires is the feeling of self-fulfillment
something is incomplete, 
I am incomplete. 
I am lost in the ocean of sadness,
the sadness of illiteracy,
the sadness of helplessness, 
the sadness that I am disabled more than any
I am incomplete,
What my heart desires is to be Complete!!!! 

Enjoy ...if u like it that is 

Skeptical self :)

Insipiration is us.

Today after attending a wonderfully organized TEDx event made me think about a lot of the issues and ideas that were brought forward by the speakers. They were really good prominent speakers and had to say things that could greatly impact our lives. Some of us might even say that they were inspirational speakers. Though I am not against that statement, i  would like to state otherwise. I think that they were all very influential speakers but i think inspiration comes from within. A lot of the speakers today said that we get inspired by people and inspired by things in our surrounding. According to me we get inspired by that one significant event in our lives to change the way we think. To aspire of what we believe in. All the speakers today attributed their success to their inspiration and the rest to their dedication but no one could really point out what their inspiration was. That is the case because what inspires US is US.  What influential speakers and prominent figures in our society do to us is make us think. They force us to believe that great things can be achieved. We all go out from influential speeches and tell ourselves we are going to do this from now on but none of us really follow through. The time that we follow through when we truly inspire ourselves from our conscious and critical think about the issue and then creatively act on it (as one of our speakers mentioned this scenarios today). When we inspire ourselves is when we rise in our self confidence and we begin to achieve great things and dedicate ourselves to great things. But some how in today's world it is really hard to inspire ourselves because we are constantly bombarded with ideas, images and a standard of how we should live our lives that we forget to look into the mirror and asks ourselves how we might want to live our lives. We forget to ask why we want to live our lives the way we do. So this was me thinking about all this during the conference was going on and while i was crossing the street i realized something
Our life is just like crossing a street (j-walking). "We have to estimate the distance between the nearest car to the farthest car, avoiding the nearest car and going ahead of the farthest car. The nearest car is our past that we try to avoid and crossing the street before farthest car gets to us is us seeing our future pass by as we want."

That was my little thought hope u enjoy it....if u like it that is

sincerely,

Skeptical Self

p.s. Thanks for a commendable effort to the TEDx Ryerson U team

Beginnings

To be born is to start the journey towards death.
Madeleine L’Engle 

Those who say, that starting a new beginning is for those who are brave, and those that only look at the end always fail!!. This philosophy maybe true and maybe false, but at the end of the day the person who looses the most is the person who always fears to begin. I have been wondering a lot now a days...sometimes about rubbish issues and sometimes about issues that gives me goosebumps. We all go through a lot in our lives. Certainly some people have more hardships than others but I think we all have our share ( i think). Anyways so I have been wanting to start everything over. Leave everything behind. By everything i mean everything. The country, the people, and the possessions. But then those are just physical objects in the universe. I may be able to the country but not its streets, I may be able to leave the people but not their memories and i may leave the possessions but not their need. So it all spirals down to the fact that the "thing" you want to leave behind the most is yourself and nothing else. Its seems practically impossible for obvious reasons. So i basically one can never escape the "soul" in themselves. Because there lies all the scares, the memories and the wisdom. Brings me back to saying that there are no true beginnings, that is just a metaphorical term used so one can please the self into thinking that our past will not influence our future. Truly what we mean by new beginnings is the process of substitution and then elimination. Simple basic math or perhaps the process of erosion and evolution basic biology or chromatography basic chemistry. Mathematically speaking one has to have more experiences in life in order to substitute the old ones thus eliminating them from our memories. One has to let the scares to slowly erode and then evolve on the newer experience and one has to let the heavier bogged down memories to lag behind as the more recent memories move to our frontal cortex. Moving away from boring scientific explanations i hope that i have not ruined anyone's beliefs about beginnings. I wish they existed. Well they do if you have amnesia :P...not that i m advocating that one should have amnesia to move forward in life.

Anyways i was filled up with emotions and thought i should write crap so i did.

Hope you enjoyed it :)...if u like it that is....

my innovative quote for the writing - " One's true liberation only comes with death ...everything in between is a mere illusion to achieve it  " ...wow super lame and sinical 

Utopia

Melancholy and utopia are heads and tails of the same coin~GUNTER GRASS

So i have final exams and can't seem to concentrate. As usual who likes studying. But recently they keep in telecasting stupid movies on Sony about the fight against evil by Indian police inspector. And weirdly enough it got me thinking of everyone's purpose on earth. Is it that people always want to strive for a Utopia or they actually want it. I might sound really cynical but i think i like the world we live in minus a few glitches. I know that there is crime and I know there is murder, terrorism, pollution, population, and not to mention OMG global warming. And we hear over and over again in the news we need to get rid of the criminal, we need to do this and we need to do that. But truthfully imagine a real Utopian society. What is a Utopian society. Even though there is a definition of an Utopian society in the dictionary i think Utopia is a figurative speech, a metaphor, or rather a extremely subjective perspective of looking at the world. Let me give you an example of what utopia is from different kinds of people. 


From a poor man: I think utopia would be when no one goes to sleep hungry, everyone has a place to live in and to  protect their loved ones.


From a rich man: I think a Utopia is when no one will steal my money and i continuously get this wealth and prosperity and no one in my family falls sick.


From a criminal: I think a Utopia is when the reason for my behaviour vanishes, and i get another chance to prove myself, where i m also treated with respect even though i made a mistake once.

From  a police Force: I think an Utopia is when i m able to catch all the criminals in the world and i get awarded for it. 


From a doctors point of view: Not necessarily fatally ill but i get patients


From an engineers point of view: i want to make machines but to the point they don't take over me.  


These are just few examples....doesn't mean its true that they have to think like that. But imagine that everyone is rich, that means the value of money will vanish, imagine if every criminal is in jail or respected then we don't need police man, imagine that everyone stay healthy, we won't need the entire health industry, and imagine engineers make a machine that is as smart as a human, who will then need emotional fools such as us. 


So the point of this long rant is that everyone's utopia is different, and one mans utopia is another man's dystopia, for a non doctor being healthy is a utopia but for a doctor its a dystopia. And omg i don't know about u all, but if i had to live in a world where nothing is happening and every is like this  :D:D:D:D:D:D:D...wow then telling a joke to a sad person would be no longer fun. Making someone realize there mistake will be no fun, parents will never have to teach their kids anything and lovers will have no reason to manai ( god can't find the English word for it....what i mean to say is u know when they get mad go and make them happy) each other . And to give a religious point of view for those religious ones out there.......if heaven is on earth no one will ever wanna leave earth......and no offence if someone doesn't die the earth might have problems sustaining next 8 billion more people...its already over limit.....just food for thought...hehehe
so this was my most unproffesional blog for u all....hopefully i didn't break anyone's bubble of utopia....i love this world minus the rapist and terrorist everything is dandy.....well it might be an hypocritical statement ....but comeon u don't need to rape someone to get pleasure (plenty of that available in the market) and terrorist what can i say they are just fools trying to show of power ....well buddies show your power off where its needed...goo plough some land ;).....
Okies so this was my really weird long first post of the year....and since there is noo summer school for me this year....hope to be writing soon :)....wish me luck for my exams :D


Enjoy: if you like it that is ;)


Skeptical self .....


p.s: my quote for the post:  " What you already have is exactly what you need...more is gonna be too much and less is going to hurt :)"

BOREDOM!!!

“Uncertainty and mystery are energies of life. Don't let them scare you unduly, for they keep boredom at bay and spark creativity.”

hmm....almost 2 in the morning ...obviously extremely bored and my friend suggested that i should blog more often.I am taking his suggestion obviously but then again i don't understand why i am i doing. We all are bored once in a while and some of us are bored quite often.Some say if you get bored easily that means you don't know how to enjoy the things around you, and some say if you get bored easily then you yourself are a boring person. But i have a different take at this boredom situation. I think when i get bored i believe that its the threshold where the brain starts becoming creative. Confusing one might say...but when i m bored to the extreme level i search for novelty. And historical evidence has shown that scientist have discovered great things on the search of novelty, creativity and the sheer joy of curiosity. Curiosity doesn't occur without boredom being there to ignite the spark and novelty doesn't come unless you are bored by what you have already seen. Recently while watching a play the character kept on saying compliment in disguise, similarly boredom is the push towards fun in disguise. So it seems like everything you do is a disguise of something that is in process to come.Not guaranteed that it will be good but definitely will take you out of your "boredom"

Last post of 2010 so let me leave you all with a quote ......definitely of my own creations :P

"like love  is disguise of  pain and light is disguise of dark , similarly i m a disguise of u and u of mine " ....hahah that was horrible because my horrible end is a disguise of .....u fill the rest up!!!!

BYE 2010 

and welcome 2011 

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!

Hope u enjoyed the post

have fun ....if u liked it tht is :P

skeptical self...adios...amigoss

commitment

The relationship between commitment and doubt is by no means an antagonistic one. Commitment is healthiest when it is not without doubt but in spite of doubt. ~ Rollo May 


Whenever we here the word commitment we tend to get rather anxious. We believe that after we are committed to something our lives are gonna go into endless doom of despair. I am not talking about relationship commitment but more or less about every kind of commitment, something as simple as committing ourselves to not drink pop for a month. I always wondered why people are so afraid of commitments to a task. Why is it that before the commitment is made that same task is so much more fun to do and after the label is put upon you that you are committed to this task we all of a sudden loose interest in performing in it. I can understand to  some extent why this might be the case. Its basically the idea between having that element of surprise that constant level of adrenaline that happens when you don't know whats about to come. But its should be the same with committed task, the element of surprise is still there just in a different context. Its very complicated topic too tackle, but my theory on this would be that we are just afraid of failure. When i say theory i means that a general observation that i have seen in these committed situation. Fear of failure ...an nice alliteration...but nevertheless that is the case. Humans love conquering every task that they take on. They like to dominate over and succeed in everything they attempt to do .But when commitment comes into play the outcomes becomes known and definite. For e.g. if you promise yourself not to have a drink for a month and you get weaken by a stimulus and have a drink you failed in that task. Due to that failure you will be considered weak with no self control and someone who cannot achieve taken on tasks. This will in turn demean your authority as a superior being hence greatly affect your self esteem. All this sounds like gibberish but if you think about it to some extent this is true. Another example would be afraid to choose a major for your degree. We don't necessarily choose what we are interested in but rather what we think we might be successful in. If we only choose things we like and got committed to them than a lot of us would see the face of failure. If i wanted to become a famous guitar player and become committed to having a career in that than it is not necessary that will particularly happen. So when the big picture is looked upon we tend to bend towards things we are capable of succeeding in. You can also argue that what is failure and who decides failure. Well for this post all i gotta say is that failure is definitely relative and  different people have different perspective. 
A quote with a pun : "If i won't fail it , i will nail it ;P" ----Skeptical Self 


enjoy:)  hopefully that is 


Skeptical Self :)

Unconscious purpose

Its a friday night almost a sat morning, sitting in front of the computer absolutely wasting my time. Well you may wonder if i already know that this is waste of time why would i be doing it in the first place? Well there are lot of things that we think that are a waste of time but we do them nevertheless. For example watching the same movies over and over again, talking on the phone for hours saying stuff like " so umm yea wats new" once at least 5 minutes or checking facebook every 2 mins eventhough we know nothing new went on it. So why do we do these worthless time consuming, wasting energy and never benefit us? I have tried not doing these activities and being more productive like , reading textbooks, baking, cleaning but eventhough they are such highly productive activities they more or less felt like chores. And whenever something is joined to the label of chores it can never give you satisfaction. What truly gives people satisfaction is challenging their imaginative side, social self and thought provoking.Humans absolutely thrive on putting themselves into fictitious characters and imagining a life that they themselves cannot enjoy, thus reading novels and watching cheezy movies fulfills craving of living an interesting life is achieved. Social networks most definitely waste a lot of time of an individual through non-sense tags and games, but i am 100 percent sure that when ever we get tagged in a post especially the ones that include a less amount of people our self esteem take a leap for sure. It makes us feel like we are part of someones life and someone else thinks of us as an important member. According to big bang theory's character it might be a useless thing to wish for, but according to a Nativist we can explain that it is all evolutionary need. We all need to create contacts so human kind can procreate and when in time of need can call our "pact" to save the human kind :P....seems rather ironic since we are out to ruin our own kind and we are actually fulfilling that criteria pretty well. One side of the coin, make connections and socialize to get your ass saved when needed, but on the other side go behind the same people and shoot their brains out so they won't go against your beliefs and ideas.
               This post seems rather opinionated and messy and seems like a long boring essay. Well actually truthfully speaking rambling on about random topic and not really reaching a concise agreement to any matter is the biggest problem with a person who is OVERLY skeptical about anything. Coming up with a skeptical little conclusion to my post is that ......well wasting time seems useless but our chimpanzee brain is actually trying to make us more efficient creature that can possibly save our asses in the future, and also help us imagine a different life that we could live.

Enjoy !!!! hopefully that is:P

Skeptical mee ;P